truth is i don’t trust anyone anymore not even myself. i know that i lie everyday saying i’m ok. who the fuck should have to lie about that? like imagine if everyone is lying about it then who can you trust. who isn’t hurting. who dosen’t have problems. we are all dealing with shit everyday in our lives so don’t pretend anymore. its ok to say your having a bad day. its ok to get upset. whats not ok is not telling your friends and the people who care about you the most. even when it hurts.

concretewave:

i love how one second you act like im the best thing to ever happen to you and the next you act like im nothing but complete shit to you.

(via p0urtoujour)

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(via the-thoughts-im-thinking)

“why can’t you see me, the real me who is not surviving without you. sure i’m smiling and laughing but you know me better than anyone on the planet. so you know how much i am hurting. and still you refuse to end my agony. refuse to heal my wound. you know you broke my heart and what hurts the most is you don’t even care enough anymore to help put it back together. even if you don’t want it someone else will. someday i’ll have the strength to give it to them” -unknown-

Im tired of feeling this way. I know it would be right for me to let go but no matter how much I tell myself to do it, I cant. I tell myself that its better to never see you again, but no matter how much I try to forget, it always makes me remember all the good times we had, and even the bad, and how much I regret the things Ive done, all the things Ive said.

todays just that day that you can’t leave your room because fake smiles and laughter just won’t come. its the crippling pain that comes in waves when you remember, and remember, and remember. over and over like a bad movie in your head. except you don’t want it to stop because its the only way you feel close to him anymore. so you just lie there and let the memories flood over you and give in to the pain knowing that tomorrow you WILL feel better and that eventually it won’t hurt so bad.