Confessions of a Bookworm

todays just that day that you can’t leave your room because fake smiles and laughter just won’t come. its the crippling pain that comes in waves when you remember, and remember, and remember. over and over like a bad movie in your head. except you don’t want it to stop because its the only way you feel close to him anymore. so you just lie there and let the memories flood over you and give in to the pain knowing that tomorrow you WILL feel better and that eventually it won’t hurt so bad.